Gone was my innocence...

I did not think I will be able to forget this day for the rest of my life. In fact, it is the beginning of the first day of my BUSINESS life. I was shocked, perturbed, and left with my confidence shaken, as one my confidant friend worded it last.

It was who I call my best colleagues that worked at the UN who said it to me. I asked his intervention on some politic I was navigating to get my project approved and send him copies for his own confidence. Here came the feedback. 'Sophia, you do not have the credibility", what? I asked? what the h... r u saying? getting mad of course. He said it has got nothing to do with your accomplishments or what you can do. It is just that u r good looking and people will never say No to you as you ask their support, but will never support you in fact, unless they put their mouth to paper. That was the point he was trying to make. Need it in writing, of all the verbal supports I depicted in the memo of the big boys, that he read.

Somehow it sounded right..but after I hang up the phone, it is almost 5 days now and I am still reeling down my past, present and potential experience through what he said. I was shocked to how most could have been thru and how naive I was that I never knew, that the YES was just to be nice ... although I hate my friend for telling me the truth and it hurts so much, it is an eye opening statement, one that would live with me the rest of my life. I just hope it does not present a stumbling block instead.